They are adorable as it can get but they can also be the craziest roller coaster!
They will kiss each other, lay down on the rug together, hold each others hands in the car stretching their little arms so they can overcome the distance between the car seats! They laugh, sing and play together! They pray together (melt.my.heart I KNOW!!) They will even help me clean together! Actually everything that one is doing the other one wants in too!
And that's when they will also: FIGHT!! Sometimes it seems to me they even find enjoyment in fighting!! They will fight over anything and everything, literally over an old piece of paper with scribbles on it! I don't have pics about these occasions, naturally, since I would rather be busy trying to solve the situation!
This is reality, folks! It doesn't mean it's a bad one! I confess it can be really tiring at times, but it can be so rewarding too! You won't find heaven on Earth, but that doesn't mean life is not worth living! Find your peace of mind and soul, and love, and enjoy life!
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Dan got pretty sick on the beginning of this week! He had to skip work on Monday but dragged himself to it on Tuesday. Rebecca kept us awake for three hours (between 2:30am and 5:30am) tuesday early morning. By the time everyone was out of bed at 8am, we were obviously late for everything we had to do that day! Dan asked me to drive him to work in Houston (a 45 min drive) and so we put everyone in the car and there we went.
I was a mess! Tired and crazy as I can get (uh-oh)! Sunday and Monday were pretty rough with noisy kids adjusting to no more in-laws at home (my in-laws were here with us for one month and they had just left on Sunday), a very sick husband and I got to clean the WHOLE house (please read: every.single.bit.of.the.house!). Did I have to clean like a mad person exactly on those days? Well, if I must answer that: "no", of course. But go tell that to a cray-cray like me!
Well, Tuesday was recollection day (every first Tuesday of the Month). It's a two hours recollection time containing two 30 min meditations on catholic formation ministered by (but not exclusive to) Opus Dei. We also have 15 min of a spiritual reading, examination questions, and confession. (It's pretty awesome, you should try it someday! They have it for men too!) I usually go to the evening recollection alone but I already had told myself I wouldn't be able to go that day, because I would be a worse mess by night, considering how bad the day started!
But well, Dan asked me to drive him to Houston, so I was there already! The morning recollection starts at 10am so I was just in time. And since they offer child care at the church for a small fee, the kids were happy to stay there and play so I got to attend the recollection in peace!
And who would have thought that was exactly what I needed? God, right? I washed my soul in confession and got some pretty good insights and practical advice at the spiritual reading and the meditations! A fresh start! Just in time for advent! Thank you, God, for Opus Dei. I mean it!
When we got back home, things were not different or better! But I was! I stopped yelling at the kiddos while "correcting" them and as a consequence, they were less noisy too! And I got to enjoy them! I got to smile more! I was even less tired! Honestly, I cannot credit anything or anyone else other than God's grace for such a change! I also know that this disposition won't last forever, that's why next month I plan to be at the recollection again! To do everything by ourselves can be so tiring, or even impossible! I acknowledge I need God and good people in my life to help me get back on track and be the best I can be!
Since I get to choose how to finish my posts, I would like to seal it with a disclaimer! I know some of you are not catholic or not even religious at all! I don't intend to impose my way of thinking on anyone! This is my personal experience and it's just what my heart and mind are felling right now.
xoxo
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